Monday, April 12, 2010


Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Thought my best days had left me behind

I think I just hit a realization.
I am searching for something that you can usually only obtain in your childhood.
I think there are certain types of friendships that can only develop into the closeness that they have become because of your young years together.
I have a dull pain in my head.  It could be because a number of things...
The fact that the dentist put too much filling in my tooth and so I strain every time i close my jaw
or that my loneliness is getting to me and my restlessness is finally at its peak
or that I have a brain tumor...

I guess its just really dry out.
That must be a metaphor

Maybe the flow in my home isn't correct?!

I miss my friend.  I wish she was here.  I am selfish enough to wish she was here, and I not there.
I actually miss the days I thought I was so bored sitting on the couch with her for hours on the computer...
She inspired me to do art..I really haven't worked on anything since she's gone.

Its one of those friendship where you just feel so comfortable with them, and you know they get you, and are quite like you, but different.

Someone that you really do feel is part of your family.

I think aside from really loving the music, I have been purchasing certain records to feel like I am sharing something with her.

She's my bff for life.  It scares me to think that we will always be far from one another.
But I am thankful for her. 

Why does it have to be so hard as an adult to find that?
I wish it was the summer, 1993, in Michigan.


Monday, November 30, 2009

Unexped and a response is nice

it throws you things you don't expect and creates a journey despite your expected map

I had to do something that was pretty difficult last night.  I still feel kind of sick about it, but I know it was the right choice.  Things get messy when you involve two people in two different worlds.  Friends and's really a sticky thing.  We hope for it to be amazing, but it always isn't so.

A chapter closes to begin a new, Truth.

I love getting responses to things, even if its just a " Got your note, working on it"  or a "Got your note, I am super busy and will get back to you soon"  just a response.

It seems people in this beautiful and sunny state are not really into that..a leisurely pace is much better for your health, but dammit, communication is just as important.

I need a strong group to help keep me up, but if I must go alone, I know I will be just as strong.  I won't fall into people telling me I can't do something.  I thank the ones who know me for telling me otherwise, and reminding me of who I am.

I won't let the flies gather around me.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Style Rookie

Have you seen this girl? 
It's amazing what a good blog will do for you.
All I know is at her age I was not this motivated or this cool...
It will be interesting to see where she goes!

Friday, November 13, 2009


If you ever get a should see them live.
I am saying this, and I have never seen them live.  I missed my last chance because I was in time..
I remember being very intrigued by them not only because of their musical style, choices of instruments and voices, but also because of their gender bending, costumes, makeup, hair...
I would imagine they would be really exciting and inspiring friends.
Click the Milkman link to see them preform live..