Monday, November 30, 2009

Unexped and a response is nice

it throws you things you don't expect and creates a journey despite your expected map

I had to do something that was pretty difficult last night.  I still feel kind of sick about it, but I know it was the right choice.  Things get messy when you involve two people in two different worlds.  Friends and's really a sticky thing.  We hope for it to be amazing, but it always isn't so.

A chapter closes to begin a new, Truth.

I love getting responses to things, even if its just a " Got your note, working on it"  or a "Got your note, I am super busy and will get back to you soon"  just a response.

It seems people in this beautiful and sunny state are not really into that..a leisurely pace is much better for your health, but dammit, communication is just as important.

I need a strong group to help keep me up, but if I must go alone, I know I will be just as strong.  I won't fall into people telling me I can't do something.  I thank the ones who know me for telling me otherwise, and reminding me of who I am.

I won't let the flies gather around me.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Style Rookie

Have you seen this girl? 
It's amazing what a good blog will do for you.
All I know is at her age I was not this motivated or this cool...
It will be interesting to see where she goes!

Friday, November 13, 2009


If you ever get a should see them live.
I am saying this, and I have never seen them live.  I missed my last chance because I was in time..
I remember being very intrigued by them not only because of their musical style, choices of instruments and voices, but also because of their gender bending, costumes, makeup, hair...
I would imagine they would be really exciting and inspiring friends.
Click the Milkman link to see them preform live..



Made it to the gym!


Went to go see this movie last night.  Probably the first time I thought Charlotte Gainsbourg was attractive.  This movie was a visual love machine and sound orgasm.

And very very disturbing.  I highly recommend it.

I have a bit of a dip pit in my chest this morning.
maybe a bit of Anxiety?
Time to go to the gym and sweat it out..maybe.  I am supposed to meet my friend there in 5 minutes and I still haven't washed my face.

I have a pretty exciting shoot tomorrow for
with stylist Bailey,
photographers Petrovsky & Ramoe
and artist Mattia Biagi

I am pretty excited to see where this shoot goes, this group is going to be crazy, sexy, and fun.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

The Fresh

Low moments swell in my finger tips, in my shoulders, and in my forehead.

The fear that most people reflect on has made me ask questions about myself.
"Am I more like her than I have ever been?" How could it be. I haven't seen or been around any of them in years..I guess its true. Those first few years are the most formative.

For ever searching for companionship and simultaneous solitude.

I had a rug when I was little just like his. Blame it on a mother who was a interior designer in the early 90's. We also had gold AND silver vertical blinds. OH and mannequins wearing clothing in our living room...

Ah to be Fresh.